About

Hi, I’m Noelle. Welcome to my corner of the interwebs where I share my thoughts, feelings, and experiences as a 58 year old woman whose life is just starting. Seriously everything leading up to now feels like a dry run, maybe you can relate.

Some things you might find me going on about in my Notes—my current living situation sharing a house with 6 roommates, designing and nesting in my awesome new room, my new life as a New Hampshirian (is that what we call ourselves?), making a full -time job in a new field work somehow, creating (and resisting) routine, managing mental and physical health challenges of late-diagnosed ADHD, finding true self-esteem, becoming financially stable, and whatever else hits me as somehow helpful, or even urgent, to document. Oh, and I love color. There will be posts about paint, for sure.

I also wish to reflect on my recent journey since the pandemic, which included a years-long nomadic journey across the US sleeping nightly in my beloved SUV Loving Bird. It was a strange mix of horror and exhilaration, uncertainty and empowerment, and I have yet to really unpack it. I have an idea that I might do that here. Basically my aim is to slow down life so I can taste it more completely. I’m shooting for intimacy—intimacy with my self and what is actually happening—so I can enjoy the pleasure (and lack of stress) of a truly authentic life. I write to inspire myself to that and dip myself in the pools of inspiration that flood my mind on the daily when I let them.

If you are looking for a through line to my writing, your guess is as good as mine. But I can tell you that, as long as I can remember, a great lot of my energy has gone to wrestling with a certain conundrum — how do I create a situation that is sufficiently supportive, uplifting and Noelle-friendly that I can exist as it feels natural to exist and do what I was born to do? A satisfying answer has always evaded me. Learning I was neurodivergent brought great clarity and poignancy to this quest. I see what I’ve been up against, and I realize, if I'm going to make it, I need to take self-validation and self-care way more seriously. I need to walk a path that hasn’t been walked before and do so with a certain amount of force.

So, I’m figuring that out as I go. Maybe you are too. “Slow journaling" helps me discover that path and attach my experience to an upward spiral of energy. I have done good healing work to date. I am less cavalier about life and my own needs. I feel clearer and safer in my own mind, And I’m ready to project my work-in-progress self out into the world through writing. Nothing fancy, just my thoughts.

Welcome and thank you for reading~

Noelle